IT ´S ALL THE SAME

There is no change, everything remains the same
It was only my hidden wish of getting something from you.
It was just a cold detail, that I deceitfully wanted to see 
as a  kind gesture.

Whether there is something obscure behind that, no will I ever know
But once more, I receive no answer, 
once more, you keep on aloof .
You still  hold the bounds that  once were settled
You still remain oppressive, so, that is what I perceive. 
What for? you don ´t want me to get close, not even a try.

Maybe it' s just myself, who repress, 
maybe it was me who once should have exploted
but you behaved so fearfully... so heartless

I just live with that inside me, but now unexpectedly, 
You come back to my mind just to disappear again.

Sure I am that you are not aware, 
for that you remain all facts behind, there in the past,fully asleep.
While I ´d still like to talk you, to make everything  be awake 
to open myself to you
 to stop your thoughts of me being stupid